I’ve been meaning to post something sooner- I have a lot of posts started but haven’t finished yet. In the mean time we’ve experienced two deaths in our family, traveling, a pipe burst, Christmas and all its glory, etc etc. So I dug into my “archives” from early in my journey with God. I am very grateful for my journaling because I can look back and, not only see how far I’ve come, but also remind myself of things I’ve forgotten.
Sometimes I get hung up in finding material for my blog. I’ll spend two hours writing something and then I’ll say to myself: “This isn’t good enough.” Or “This is too basic and common sense.” But I have to remind myself – if I think I’m a 5 or 6 on the knowledge scale then I get to help the 3’s and 4’s, not the 7’s and 8’s.
Just this morning I heard about a study where people who were trying to change their habits were either instructed to say “I can’t” versus “I don’t.” Those who said “I don’t” were far more successful at avoiding the unwanted behavior than those who said “I can’t” because “I don’t” is associated with their identity. It’s who you are. Such a small change but a good reminder. It’s all semantics. How we talk to ourselves can be life giving or take the wind completely out of our sails. I get it. When someone else your entire life has told you unkind things about yourself- these can be hard to dispel. But you didn’t believe those bad things right away- you were convinced after the repetition. To replace the good with the bad it takes repetition. And you won’t always believe it. But don’t forget WHOSE you are. This is why I personally need to read the Bible every day. (I’ve just started the ‘read the Bible in 365’ plan on the Bible app! You can do it with friends too!) I need the constant reminder to love myself and others, to remind me that I am wanted and loved and pursued. I even saved this picture of Jesus laughing to my phone lock screen. I needed to picture Him as my best friend, not the angry judge above me. I’d imagine him reclined in the chair beside me, so intrigued and intently listening to what I say.
Once in my life I only cared what others thought of me. My favorite adjective was the F bomb. The tighter my clothes the better. The dirtier my jokes the funnier. I thought my only value was in my body and my ability to earn money. Any and all transformation is absolutely God’s doing (for His glory) and I am forever grateful for His guidance and freedom from my shackles.
So without further ado I give you my list of things I felt God saying to me as I first started to read, pray, and study the Bible. This is what the Holy Spirit did inside of me those mornings I couldn’t wait to get up at 4:30am to spend time with Him. I hope it touches your soul.
What God says about me
I love you.
I appreciate you.
I am grateful for you.
You are a rare and beautiful treasure.
I forgive you. Even for the things you’re not sorry for.
I’m proud of you. I’m proud to be your dad.
I smile and laugh and clap with unending joy for you.
I created everything for you and want you to enjoy it. You are why I do everything I do.
I want to spend time with you because you are important to me.
You are worth listening to, worthy of sacrifice, worthy of time and love and attention.
I hold you to a high standard.
You’re free from bondage.
I give you grace, undeserved favor. No matter what you do I will always love you and pursue you.
I’m not going to beat you up for what Jesus already got beat up for.
You have a special calling today.
I believe in you and I’m cheering and clapping and jumping for you.
I believe you will succeed.
I’m not going to give up on you.
I relentlessly pursue you.
I’m not going to give you what you think you deserve.
You are my prized possession.
I am patient with you. I am ready when you are.
I will come to you wherever you are.
I have compassion for you.
I get you. I understand what you’re going through. Don’t give up.
Everything you do- do it for me.
I delight in you.
My power that raises the dead to life is in you.
I give you infinite peace.
I am your greatest comfort and hold you in my hand. Close your eyes and surround yourself with my warm arms of grace.
I have bottled every one of your tears because your pain is important to me.
I’ve put you in my parade of victory and triumph.
I never grow tired or weary- you can depend on me. I will make you strong physically, emotionally, and spiritually.
Do not be shy or ashamed- you are free from all guilt and regret.
Trust me. I will always be honest.
I’m renewing your spirit and give you endless hope.
Don’t worry, you won’t be on earth for long before I bring you to my home with me. I’m preparing your castle. You’re going to love it.
Everything awesome is from me, my gift to you.
The old you is gone. I’m proud of the you that you’ve become.
No matter what you’re going through in right here. I’ll never leave you.
I’ve made you brand new. You are my bride. Your dress is sparkling white.
Celebrate your weaknesses for without them I could not work inside you. I need you to need me.
Trials are my way of making you strong. You’re tough and I’m preparing you for something amazing. You’ll see.
Please don’t doubt me- I will give you all the knowledge, wisdom, and things you need. Let me be enough for you.
I will never tempt you- I will show you the way out, just ask.